PAUSE

I think I need to get used to the fact that life = change. I like change, don't get me wrong. I get antsy after living in the same house for a few months, I like to rearrange furniture, I get bored of driving the same roads every day, I like to cook new and different meals, and I love the change of scenery that comes with travel. But some days, I just want to hit the PAUSE button on life.

Looking back on this year, a lot has changed for me. And by "a lot" I mean almost everything.

Yes, I still love Jesus; that hasn't changed. But in the last year, I met Stewart, I started dating Stewart, and I married Stewart; I moved to the other side of the world, and moved back; I've lived in seven different homes; I decided that instead of moving away for two years, I'd be back after five months; and I went from having a meaningful career to being unemployed.

If you feel like you've had a hard time keeping up with me, don't worry, I have too. I love my life, but some days I really wish I could just PAUSE, reflect, nap, and let my mind catch up with the rest of me. But then I realize - wait, I'm unemployed. I do have the time to reflect and catch up, if only I will slow down and unbusy myself for long enough. So here I am, committing to spending some time in these next couple days doing just that -- PAUSING.