still hanging in there

I'm still here.  Still pregnant.  Still just waiting.  Waiting for the baby to come; waiting to be sent back to the hospital at any time.  Just putting in my time, doing my best to stay infection-free and keep baby growing in utero for as long as possible.

I'm 31 weeks today, so it sounds like I have only three more weeks before induction.  Or less if I go into labour on my own.

We're doing okay.  Physically, I feel fine.  Emotionally, it's been quite a roller-coaster ride these past two weeks.  Some days are great, other days I feel so incredibly sick of it and just want a "normal" pregnancy.  But that's not going to happen this time around.  My last overnight hospital stay (this past Thursday) had me thinking "I'm staying in hospital and on bedrest, so hopefully our baby won't have to".  That's incentive enough to keep being obedient to the doctors and nurses and taking it easy.

Today I watched some clips online of babies in the NICU.  It was quite informative about what the various machines and tubes are for, but it really got me.  I haven't really let myself cry -- until now, seeing real footage of tiny babies covered in tubes and medical equipment.


Dear Lord, please help our baby to grow big and strong and healthy these next three weeks.  Give us grace for whatever comes our way.  We need You to carry us!